Patience In Waiting

“When I wait, you strengthen my heart” Psalm 27:24

Do you struggle with waiting? We live in a society that everything has to happen NOW. We don’t want to wait for things to happen. We don’t  want to wait for that big purchase. We don’t want to wait for that next job opportunity. We don’t want to wait for that next relationship. We want it all to happen in the present, not the future.

For about 6 years now, I’ve gotten several words from different people about waiting for the husband that God has for me and until then, let God be my husband. For someone who has been in different relationships since I’ve been 14 years old, this is not something that I’ve ever done. I’ve always jumped from one relationship into the next and conforming to them and who they wanted in  girlfriend or wife. Doing this, I lost my identity and who I am. When my last relationship came to an end in April, two more people told me to wait and I thought, okay God…I hear you and I’ll listen to you so you can stop sending people to tell me what to do!

I honestly didn’t know how to wait. What does waiting really look like? God, what are you trying to do here? I believe in Jesus. I believe that he works all things for our good. Why can’t I just get in a relationship and God fix whatever is broken? Why do I have to wait for God to fix broken pieces in someone else in order for a relationship to truly succeed? Why do I need to wait for God to fix my broken pieces? The reality of it is, what kind of relationship can we have if we’re both broken? Would it be a relationship that would be healthy? It wouldn’t be fair for me to be broken and expect them to be the one who mends those broken pieces and I’ve come to the understand that I CAN NOT fix anyone else’s broken pieces and they CAN NOT fix mine. That’s God’s job.

For years, I’ve always saw the “potential” in someone. The potential for them to have a good heart. The potential for them to do the right things. The potential for them to love God like I do. The potential to be the husband that I desired. No wonder none have been successful! We shouldn’t date or marry based on their potential. Either they are what we desire or they are not. It’s really that simple. And if they are not, we need to move on and not settle based upon potential.

This is my season of waiting. Yes, I’ve been on dates and yes, I have conversations with different people and my daily prayer is that if they are not part of God’s plan for my life, they need to be removed. I also have to remind myself that when they are removed, its because I asked God to do so and to leave it like that and not pick it back up.

I want the husband that God has for me. I want to be the wife that God has for him. Until then, I will wait and I will allow God to continue to mend my broken pieces.

Are you in a waiting season? What are you waiting for?