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Beautiful Scars
I know you’ve known pain, I can see it in your eyes You say it doesn’t hurt and to me that’s no surprise You’ve forgotten how to laugh and no one sees your smile You hide away your emotions ’cause the world has been so vile Your tears could fill a river but they’ve dried up long ago Some people think they relate but they really don’t know Even since your youth, you’ve had a heart of gold But the trauma from your wounds made you callused and cold You have trouble believing people ’cause you’ve been treated so unjust Finally, you let your guard down and decide…
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Set Free
Dope controlled my mind and had me possessed I once was burdened then He gave me rest I once was vulnerable but now I’m secure I once had a sickness but He was the cure I once was captive and Satan held the key ‘Til I asked my King and He pardoned me I once was crippled but now I can walk He’s in the business of miracles and that is real talk I once was lost but now I am found His grace is sufficient, His love profound I once was blind but now I can see Drugs had me bound but Jesus set me free
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Master Manipulators
What is a manipulator? According to Wikipedia, it is a person who applies psychological manipulation. What does psychological manipulation mean? According to Wikipedia, it is a type of influence that aims to change the behavior or perception of others through indirect, deceptive, or underhanded tactics. Have you ever dealt with a person who manipulates to get their way? What about someone who can camouflage their true motives and paint a pretty picture of why something should be given to them or done their way? Often times, it appears that manipulators have your best interest at heart when they truly have an ulterior motive for some type of gain for themselves. A…
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Child Of An Addict
Drug addiction is no stranger to me. Growing up, I watched my older brother struggle with it and he still does to this day. I’ve seen what it did to his family and what it continues to do to his son. Today, I watch what it’s doing to our middle child. No, I did not physically give birth to him but I accepted him along with his two brothers when I chose to say yes to Brodie in being his girlfriend and later, his wife. Most of his life, he’s watched both of his parents be consumed by addiction. He and his older brother had to fend for themselves…
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Tarts and Cookies
Some of you may have read the post on Loss regarding the loss of my MaMom (grandmother) whose soul left this earth on November 23, 2020 to be with Jesus. Shortly after her passing we noticed, what seemed to us, the sudden decline of my PaPop (grandfather), her husband. On New Year’s Day, I saw it for myself and became concerned. He was confused as to where he was and even made the comment to my Mom that her mom was waiting for him at home but she knew where he was so he wasn’t in a hurry. My Mom had to remind him that she was no longer here…
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I Am That Addict pt. 2
I am that addict who’s almost four years sober and clean I am that addict who used to be violent and mean I am that addict who now leads an honest life I am that addict who was blessed with a God fearing wife I am that addict who goes to work everyday I am that addict who wakes every morning to pray I am that addict who’s hard times made me much wiser I am that addict who worked his butt off to become a supervisor I am that addict who would bum rides to work and get stuck I am that addict who now has a gas…
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Loss
Loss of a loved one or friend is something that we all experience in life. It’s something that you can never prepare for no matter how hard you try. No matter how much you tell yourself what the reality is. Sometimes its a waiting period like a terminal illness, sometimes its sudden like a suicide or some type of accident. I recently experienced a loss in my own family, my MaMom, and although I knew the ultimate outcome of the situation, I was still ripped apart when I got the phone call. To know that I will never hear her laugh or feel her hugs again on this earth,…
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You Are Enough
When you feel worthless and all out of fight Just look up at the stars, they shine brightest when its night The darkness may ingulf you but hold on with all of your might ‘Cause there’s a peace and tranquility that comes with the morning’s first light You are very important no matter what anyone made you think Your name was written in the Heavens even before there was a such thing as ink You have a unique purpose and its reaching people who are just like you ‘Cause who understands them better and knows what they are going through Don’t live your life according to others or the way…
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A Massage Of Hope
I’ve been in your shoes I’ve sat in your chair I was a lost cause and did not have a prayer I felt betrayal and the bitter taste of pain I’ve had a .40 cal pressed up to my brain I’ve woke up to empty bottles all over the ground I’d drink whiskey on the daily praying I would drown I’ve been the outcast A.K.A. the black sheep I let anger turn into hate from every time I’d weep I’ve robbed people and hurt people and did some jacked up stuff I did it to feel good ’cause I thought it made me tough I wanted a solution and I thought that it was dope I…
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A Safe Space
Have you shared what was bothering you with your spouse and it was not validated and or shut down instantly and that was the end of it? Yet, when they are upset about something, they share it with you and you have to listen and validate how they feel. It’s frustrating and leads to keeping things to yourself for fear of being put down and unvalidated. It makes you feel like what bothers you doesn’t matter and there’s no need to bring it up and discuss it. This dynamic is not what a healthy relationship consist of. Both parties need to make sure that they are creating a safe…
